Current mood: validated
Category: Jobs, Work, Careers The thought manifests as the word;
The word manifests as the deed;
The deed develops into habit;
And habit hardens into character;
So watch the thought and its ways with care,
And let it spring from love
Born out of concern for all beings...
As the shadow follows the body, as we think, so we become.
— The Dhammapada
Dear Diary,
The rainy season is here, making the grass extra green. Starting to get cooler at night and in the mornings. The first leaves of the season are starting to fall. pretty. Even though still painfully hot during the mid day hours.
While off today I decided to upload more ancestry pics that I have found here and there. I haven't updated the family site since 2003. I know- that is pretty bad.
School starts in a couple more days. I have everything ready for her. That said. I promised her that the next time I find a pet that looks like the little pup that we got from the pound that died the next day "Julie" then I would get it for her.
So.... after driving home from the doctor's office the other day I passed a house that had some new sheltie mix pups and one of them looked like Julie so I stopped the car and left a note about being interested in the pups. Also noting that I realize that Lead dog doesn't have a lot of time left with me I found a pretty male that I liked as well. So now we have a large four legged family again. The extra fenced area really helps us during this time. Lead dog's son best boy has developed more than a few knobby tumor looking things on his back so I guess that challenge will have to be dealt with as soon as possible to keep it from getting worse. In a couple of weeks he developed four of them all over his lower back and upper tail. I try to remember the fact that nothing, not even beloved friends and animals can live forever. He is seven now, about to turn eight.
As an Engineering student of Carnagie-Melon University, I feel compelled to learn more about the meaning of the words of Professor Pausch and how I can implement them into my own life.
The economy is really making me nervous. I don't like the thought of being at a job I don't like that much. It kind of gives me the feeling of being trapped. I am grateful for having the job. I am grateful for having the van to be able to drive any distance. I am grateful for the little bit of extra money each pay to be able to save some for a rainy day. I am grateful for having the opportunity to spend over 80 years with my mom.
I am grateful for a roof over our heads during such dire times but I am also not going to be treated the way that I am at work and let them get away with it. ok it all started when they put me on the door. The little maggot that always does it. Anywho.... after I was done with three door stints I said to them good now I can finish the 20 pallets in the back that are now waiting on me and the maggot lied on me saying I was rude to him and that I got snappy with him. So the main store manager came over to me and got lippy so I got lippy back with him. I don't like the job enough as it is, who fucking cares if the jerk fires me because he will get a good piece of my mind then. "Just shut the hell up and give me my green slip so I can go away to better things. Closer things."
So anyway we begin arguing and it is right in front of the customers, he could have had more tact that to pick me out like that while customer's watch us and no, I wouldn't back down no matter what. So later the other manager comes along asking me why nothing is going out. I asked if he was serious. I was so mad at this point from holding it in I bit my tongue and lip so hard that they started bleeding and I started tearing up trying to keep from cussing him like a dog. I must have looked like something out of a vampire movie.so yea, basically they can both go fuck themselves because on my days off now I am going on a mission to find a closer and better job.. If it is absolutely the last thing that I ever do.
Speaking of ridiculousness... Now that we are on the subject... I was in the grocery store the other day and you think gas prices are high, you should price olive oil! How about $35.00 per gallon! I love olive oil and I spent $15.00 on a quart of the good stuff. Never mind spending $500 a month on gas to get to work that is over an hour away. Jobs are tight right now and I don't want to go leaving it right now but I might have to.. I am feeling a bit of a pinch in my pocket book. damn it.
Health wise I have to keep canceling my appointments to make room for mom's. I need someone to look at my hip or back or whatever the heck it is that keeps hurting inside of me. Now, turning a certain way triggers pain that shoots straight up my back from my lower spine to my neck. I literally want to scream out in pain and do scream out inside because the pain is so sharp. I guess I shouldn't have lost that me voo-doo doll way back in high school. lol.
nuff said.
hmpgh.
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