Dear Diary,Haven't had much of a chance lately to update as I have been very busy working. The good news is I decided to moonlight and in doing so came upon the opportunity to meet an important person. Not just any important person but a genuine angel.
While I was doing some work for this amazing lady I saw so many of her good qualities inside of myself. She is an eccentric like myself that has about as many cats as I do if not more of them and caters to their every whim just like I do. Her husband is very promenant in the music industry and has been inducted into the rock and roll hall of fame; which is all I can say about that for right now and when I told her of my dog needing something done with her leg and that I needed to sue the guy that created the problem because if he had paid us when he was supposed to I could have had the money to have the leg amputated, and she quickly came to my aid without me ever asking her for anything. She saw my pain over the situation and came to my aid. Inside I felt like "this is the mother I should have had."
I wouldn't have asked her anyway because it is not in my nature to reach out for a hand out but when she told me that she would help no matter what the cost I broke down and cried. Sadly the dog was beyond repair and had to be put down and I am so thankful for making her friendship; otherwise the poor dog would still be suffering right now. She said that she couldn't find anyone that worked for her that she could really get along with that liked caring for her animals as a job and I told her that I would love to come to work for her as soon as she finds something for me to help her with. So she said it would be nice if I could come sometimes and help her and I said that I would love to. Taking care of her animals isn't like working at all because I have pets to care for myself and I do it out of love and not service.. These pets are not your average back yard pets, these pets have their own thousands of dollar human sleigh beds and so forth to lay on and imported tile bedrooms floors just for them. I was so overwhelmed that I could barely contain myself and my emotions. I had heard that some people live like this but I think I was unconscious until this moment when the oh shit momentum really kicked in! Other lesser minded people might procrastinate about this situation but I think it is wonderful to be able to share such a life with your pets.
There are times that you meet someone and think you would like to get to know them on a more personal level and then there are times when you just know that you were meant to meet this person and that they will play a major part in your life. I am so thankful now to the stinky shit asses that were mean to me at Walmart that made me get fed up enough to quit! Because without quitting that rotten job I would have never met this wonderful person and have this enlightened experience. Not very often do I get invited to eat dinner with a real rock icon. I am damned lucky! It seems like when the mind is in a worry about what will happen next and what seems to be a disappointment at first turns out to be a blessing or opportunity in disguise. I promised her a true commitment of friendship and service on my part.
While we were at her three-hundred plus acre Estate clinging to the cliffs of Lookout Mountain, she showed us the beautiful, almost mystical waterfall that is on the side of the forest that flows away from the creek. How nifty that she also has a creek similar to mine. She has a beautiful large shrine built for her beloved pets. I wish to do something as heart touching for my own pets. I knew as soon as I saw this shrine what a good person she was. It was a very compassionate experience for me. She also has a lot of passion about life like I do. Decision is the father of all actions. Some people were born with certain advantages and others of us have to make decisions on how to change our lives. I made the decision to move here and live a better life. I was committed on who and what I wanted in my new life. I need energetic and uplifting people as my friends as well as what kind of person that I want to be! I have standards of my own that I wish to live by.
She told me a story about the time that she had to finally let go of her dog the same way that I had to let go of mine and it almost killed her. I know the feeling. I could sense a feeling of sadness within her and I told her that I will be here for her if she needs a real friend.
The same puppy that was brought into the world straight from heaven into my hands was released back to heaven as I held her face in my hands and watched the life slip from her eyes as I held her. I am new to this whole cancer thing and from what I have seen it can be devastating. I didn't realize that it could be so life threatening without me even having any time to make any decisions about it. I did learn something that could save my family some pain in the future if it leads up to the same result. We are talking about little members of the family.
I got a call from Lil' Hottie while he was away on a school trip and we talked about some stuff going on with us both. He said I LOVE YOU, and I told him he was bi-polar and nuts then said I cared about him although I have moved on and am in love with someone else and I refuse to give up this dream. Not having the Internet is really driving me crazy because I can't chat with him and haven't in a couple of long weeks now. I want him here with me. How can I make this happen?
On the way home we stopped at a place called Cloudland and took some pics. I had been crying on and off all day so my face is swollen but the scenery is wonderful so I had to take the time to stop and get a pic for my scrap book. Although it was a sad emotional day I was very glad that I had a memento of its specialness.
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