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Those strong winds that hit hard are not really enemies.
They help to integrate you. They look as if they will uproot you,
but in fighting with them you become rooted.
~Osho
Dear Diary,
Today I go to hopefully buy a different car. The van has more benefits that a car does but I am just so Leary of car dealers.
Yes I too should have seen the red flags when it came to Mr. Hot Pants and this lady seems very much as naive' as I was where he is concerned. I hate to be a doubting Thomas but I can almost smell trouble brewing on this one.
From what she said I gather that she has her own place and a nice job to make something of herself so I hope that he doesn't try to screw her over. I guess when you love someone that much you kind of just have to take a step back and watch them from a distance. I gather that she is also worried that I might want him back. I don't think so! I am happy drifting from a state of being alone to Lil hottie every now and then. I like being his friend. Now if I can just find a cheap attorney to get my divorce all settled and everything will be just fine.
I want to make my friends something for Christmas using images and creative sayings so I am going to have to take some time and find a way to make it small enough to send via email or messenger to let them know how special I think that they are.
Especially Legend813 that has a way of not saying "I told you so" when it comes to relationships. I wish this year would bring him a wonderful woman that is good to him that spoils him and pampers him with chocolate chip cookies.
Erica and I talk almost every day via phone and I am really glad that she got a new job working at a bank. I joked with her and asked her when she said that about $30,000 flowed through her hands yesterday if she went into the bathroom and smelled her hands after touching all of that glorious money!
We both giggled. She reminds me of the me that I was before finding Honorable Mother. She got herself stuck with a bum of a husband just like I did. So let us all thank heavens for good divorce attorneys because they are worth their weight in gold.
Anywho I need to start getting ready because I also have to pick up some decorations for Little Fawn to decorate the tree and some sort of small Christmas village for the table.
You are loved.
All is well.
Aho Mitakuye' Oyasin,